My Dream (night of 8/20/10)
There was a dark forest with scary, scraggly trees. It represented my depression. There was a girl next to me, and she asked something like, "Why are you afraid? Why are you afraid to love?"
It upset me, and I was frustrated with myself because I knew I couldn't love. So I ran hard and fast towards the dark forest.
For those who have not experienced chronic depression, it may be difficult to understand someone who lives with it. While it is utterly paralyzing, it is strangely comforting. While we hate loneliness, Loneliness is our friend. Depression is an escape inside ourselves. And when I don't want to muster up the courage and energy to face the world, I run away inside of me. But God gave me a word for this fall that I would find rest in Him, and that He would give me courage...courage to love.
Wow, you described me amazingly. I never thought there might be someone feeling loneliness in the same way as myself.
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